(Looking back to 2012, that night, i had kind of a dream, and here it goes.)
The last night, I was lying on my bed… And I remembered him…
I started daydreaming, the wide ocean in front of me, the Autumn wind furious, the waves colliding with the stones, my cinnamon sweater on, the air was cold and blue… And he was there… He was…
"I’m feeling alone, could you hug me?" I told him…
He just smiled and said "Yes, sure". Then, he hugged me from my back, and placed his head on my soulder… Like in a perfect dream.
"I will love you forever, honey" I told him, because I felt it, like a hunch.
"I know it. And so I do, but… Just not in the same way as you." It didn’t hurt, because it was the truth.
One: even in forty thousands suns I would stop loving him.
Two: not even at the end of all days he will love me as I do… And that’s okay.
I told him "This is the most beautiful dream that I could ever dream… Can we stay like this forever?"
"Honey, we need to live the nightmares too… Remember that." He said.
"Yes, you’re right" I replied.
The sun wasn’t there, but the sky was so bright that it could blind me. The clouds watching us, everything was perfect….
And we kept talking, laughing, hugging eachother, playing on the sand of the beach… I was dazzled, hopeless in love…
I fell asleep daydreaming that night… Daydreaming with him…
*Blackbird, 2012
